Been awhile....

It's been awhile since I've bothered to update this... I've been working just about every hour of every day, and now is when I'm really starting to rely on my pills.

My sleeping pills are the only thing keeping me down at night and I'm still amazed that with the way my brain is running on constant overtime I'm able to fall asleep at all even with the pills. And my caffiene pills are the only thing keeping me going during the day.

But Laura is now back from her family emergency, and the regional housekeeping conference ended today so as of this moment, I have tomorrow off. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself tomorrow.

It looks like it might storm tonight.... I hope so. But at the same time, I don't. The last time we had a thunderstorm I lay awake all night freaking out... since the time before that, the damn firealarms went off, and the fire dept. couldn't shut them off for over two hours. I don't know if I'll be able to stand something like that again! Which really sucks because it's taking away all the fun of thunderstorms.

Oh, and I finally re-joined the Taproot Message Board. Heh. I first joined it back in May of '03 and had a whopping 8 posts before my life blew up in my face again, so now that I'm kind of more "settled" I've joined up again..... No one around here really knows or understands how totally obsessed with Taproot I am.... Because up until recently, no one knew why, and I do mean NO ONE. But I finally posted on the Taproot MB exactly why I'm so in love with Taproot....

I mean, I've never even told my parents.... at the time, they would have never let me go back to that job again, and luckily I had gotten paid that week so I managed to get my car fixed before anyone knew about it....

Don't ask me why I felt the need to put this behind a "cut" but oh well.

So, about two years or so ago I had a brief job in Milwaukee.... not even a bad neighborhood or anything like that.... but I was so hard up for cash that I didn't care about the drive or anything like that.

So one day I'm driving in to work, and lo and behold the rarest of rare occurances, Poem was actually being played on the radio. As I parked my car, I did some quick thinking and decided that I wasn't THAT hard up on cash that week seeing as how I'd just gotten paid, so I could afford to sit in my car for the last 30 seconds of Poem.

That decision saved my life because right then I got caught up in the middle of damn drive-by.

If I hadn't stayed to listen to the last of the song, I would have been standing right outside my car shutting the door and I would have gotten shot straight in the chest. As it was, the bullet came crashing in through my window and passed about an inch in front of my eyes. A few of the scars on my arm are from the glass, not from me, not that I like to voice that seeing as how proud I am of my scars. heh

Thankfully my paycheck was sitting in the bank, waiting for me to start spending, so I managed to have a glass company fix my window before I got off of work, because my parents, if they'd found out, would NEVER have let me go back to that job, and at that time, it was my only source of income...

Of course not even a week later, I quit that job and found another one.

There are very few songs or bands that will keep me in my car when I have the chance to punch in early and try to rack up some overtime.... but ever since then, I have not left my car while a Taproot song was on the radio, and I never will.

So that is the main reason why I love Taproot so much....

I owe them my life.